absent fathers: by a grown up son.

Today I was reading this book on Greek Philosophy called "The 10 Golden Rules" by M.A. Soupios & Panos Mordoukoutas and I was checking out the chapter on the Second Law that states: Worry only about the things that you control. With the notion that fathers day is this Sunday. Ripping me up in my head while reading this chapter was all the anger I have for my biological father whom I don't care too much for, as a friend nor a father figure. With my anger I quoted to myself that I needed to extract all of my pain that I was feeling at that moment, flip it & channel it on paper. So I wrote this poem as if I were able to talk to him.
& This piece is called,


Absent Fathers: By a Grown Up Son
By: Divine Giray

A Grudge
is something I cannot give you
I don't like grudges
I don't like pain
I hate hurt
& that whole 'Pain is Love' quote
is quite a skewed.
Revenge is a cowardly trait
That teaches consequences to children
As that is what they do.
Deep in my heart
I have a lot of Love for you.
Because without your seed,
I could not be.
So I Thank You,
& honor you for giving me life to breathe.
I understand Love, The Moments, Intercourse, & Separations
Marriage/ Divorce & Unfortunate Situations
Although I may not agree with you
I know that,
I cannot control your actions
& neither you can mine
For we are human, imperfectly
& that's what makes us fine.

I will not wallow in Self-Torment
Over the past I cannot Control
I must move forward in my Life
In order for me to grow Old
All I can do is wish you the Best.
& ask for you to wish that back into my life
So I can destroy my ill feelings
& get over from all this strife

(Worry only about the things you can control in life, and make them better.)


Hopefully this piece will touch others whom also have absent fathers in there lives.