find your love.

I will never get trapped into a relationship with someone I do not like nor love. Love is such a strong word that I swear people take for granted. Love takes time to grow like a plant. You cant just meet someone and say that you are in love with this person that you dont even know. Now you might be infatuated, lustfull, or just want to knock the boots with this person, but Love, never. Love is like a trap in my eyes. Because when two partys say that they love eachother and they are truly feeling eachother then its a wrap. They are in love! Ready to celebrate Valentines Day and go head over heels for one another.
I know one day my time will come. I have faith that there is someone out there for me. But I want that someone to be someone that can hold me down, that I can trust, that dosent have a big ass mouth, and is about us as a unit instead of about thereselve, too much in my life have I dealt with selfish people, which in turn has made me a little bit selfish of my own heart. Im not going to give my heart on a platter to no one. They must earn my love, find my love, and not try to play around with it.
Real Love I dont think Ill be ready for until I get older. Im still young and dumb, learning Lifes Lessons. Its funny because you can meet a girl one day and think shes the one but if she gives it up too quick then she aint shit. Its like you conqured her too quick. and she isnt worthy to love, there goes that saying "You cant turn a hoe into a housewife." lol. So Gangsta but true.
I admire all of my friends that find there ones. I know one day my time will come. But for the meantime, Im happy doing me, being safe, Being aware, and learning the lessons of love. To keep on moving after love is grand. I write this because I know I have a soft heart when I take away its tough shell. And all Im trying to do is make me stronger. Which I intend to do. Shit if my parents can find love after so many trials and tribulations I know I can, But the funny thing is..... Im not searching anymore.